I always get nervous when I read new book from one of my favorite authors and The Butterfly Project by Emma Scott was one of those. I hate the idea of having to give a shitty review to my favorite folks. Here’s the thing about me…How I feel about someone plays no part in my reviews. If you suck then you suck. If your great than your great. If your subpar than your subpar.
Thank fuck I’m don’t have to give a shitty review because I FLOVED this book! Seriously!
I’m going to keep it pretty but it may seem like I’m being messy – it’s just the way I talk/write. It’s one in the same.
Let’s start with a quick word from Emma Scott herself…
“Where you are is home…”
At age fourteen, Zelda Rossi witnessed the unthinkable, and has spent the last ten years hardening her heart against the guilt and grief. She channels her pain into her art: a dystopian graphic novel where vigilantes travel back in time to stop heinous crimes—like child abduction—before they happen. Zelda pitches her graphic novel to several big-time comic book publishers in New York City, only to have her hopes crash and burn. Circumstances leave her stranded in an unfamiliar city, and in an embarrassing moment of weakness, she meets a guarded young man with a past he’d do anything to change…
Beckett Copeland spent two years in prison for armed robbery, and is now struggling to keep his head above water. A bike messenger by day, he speeds around New York City, riding fast and hard but going nowhere, his criminal record holding him back almost as much as the guilt of his crime.
Zelda and Beckett form a grudging alliance of survival, and in between their stubborn clash of wills, they slowly begin to provide each other with the warmth of forgiveness, healing, and maybe even love. But when Zelda and Beckett come face to face with their pasts, they must choose to hold on to the guilt and regret that bind them, or let go and open their hearts for a shot at happiness.
The Butterfly Project is a novel that reveals the power of forgiveness, and how even the smallest decisions of the heart can—like the flutter of a butterfly’s wings—create currents that strengthen into gale winds, altering the course of a life forever.
Let’s get started, yeah…
Wait! Before we do, can I just tell you one of the main reasons I love Emma Scott’s books? They are not cliche. There’s no fluff. There’s no rich guy saves poor girl bullshit. Her books are love stories for everyone, real people. You don’t see that much anymore. Okay, now, let’s get started.
Beckett, I love you! I really do. I want you to have all of my future book babies.
Zelda, I admire you. Your strength is inspiring. Your ability to love is admiring.
Let’s put Beckett and Zelda together and yassss, perfection! Their problem was their guilt and self-destruction. They were their own worst enemy and their biggest obstacle. They where the classic example of needing to love yourself before you can love someone else.
But what if we could change that?…
What if sometimes, just sometimes, it takes someone seeing that something inside of you first and loving it before you can love yourself? That’s a possibility too, right?
The Butterfly Project showed me a different side of love. A beautiful side of course. It showed me a selfless kind of love. My heart broke for the two of them. Their pain, their fear of loving, of not feeling as though they were worth love killed me. You have these two people with amazing souls who looked in the mirror and only saw this ugly version of themselves, it pained me.
I want to be loved the way Beckett loved Zelda. I just wished that Beckett knew that he deserved to be loved just the same. For a man who hated himself, he sure knew how to love. It was just pure. I can’t think of a better way to put it. Pure. There’s no pretense. Just pure love. I can’t think of a better way to be loved or treated.
I shouldn’t have been surprised. We get little glimpses of Beckett’s soul throughout the entire book. Small bits here and there that create a large picture of the man he is. You have to read the book to know what I’m talking about. He does the most sincere things for so many people all the time and you’re just like,
“OMG! He’s so damn sweet!” So, yeah, being loved by Beckett would be an honor.
No matter what happens, even on your worst day, find something to be grateful about. It’ll make you feel better. – Zelda
I’m going to have a complete overshare moment with you right now. I knew I could trust my husband from the moment I met him. Just like Zelda knows when she met Beckett. Granted, I also had sex with my husband the first night I meet him too but Zelda didn’t – but that’s besides the point. Also, that wasn’t the first time I had sex with someone on the first night either. Don’t judge me, okay? What I’m getting at here is that, when my husband asked me to go London only 3 days after knowing each other, I wasn’t scared, I just said, “If you buy me a ticket and a passport.” He did. Here we are. Married and 2 kids later. Some people thought I was out of my mind and the rest I didn’t tell because I wasn’t in the mood for judgement. When you know, you know. Zelda knew.
It is possible to trust someone with everything you are right away? And even though Zelda didn’t give her heart to Beckett right after she meet him, she knew she could trust him with it when and if she did. That’s fucking beautiful.
“Do you want this?” he asked, his voice strained with need. “I know it’s fast, but fuck, Zelda. I need you. I need to make you feel good. I want to so bad. Please…”
Beckett was not a presumptuous man, he never wanted Zelda against her wishes. To him, her wants and needs came before his. Which was fucking amazing considering how hard his life was. He could have become a bitter, selfish man. But no, that wasn’t who he was.
Even though he couldn’t offer Zelda the world, he wanted to. Fuck that was beautiful. We all know that I have a thing for alpha males, it is just fucking sexy. I can’t say Beckett wasn’t an alpha male – I can say he was more. He was a hidden alpha. Yeah, I like that too. It’s like the same premise of, a lady in the street but a freak in the bed. He gives you that alpha when you need it and also has that sense of vulnerably. He secretly wears his heart on his sleeve.
Can you tell that I love him yet? Because I do! No lie!
And as a lover… fuck my life, I want him as my lover. Yassss! I would fucking love it!
“Zelda.” he whispered, as if my name was an answer to a question he’d been asking for a long time. He kissed me, his mouth sweet and deep, and I lay back, taking him with me.
Every touch was soft and slow. He took his time, and by the time he was done he left no doubt in my mind – or on any part of my body – that I was sexy and beautiful and precious to him. – Zelda
“Yeah, you’re pretty easy on the eyes, Copland. No one’s told you that before?”
His smile slipped, his eyes held mine in their sapphire depths. “No one who mattered.”
Beckett’s humility was one of the most beautiful things about him. Yes, he was physically beautiful but his soul, it was stunning. A compliment coming from Zelda gave Beckett life! It was EVERYTHING!!!!
Even though it was incredibly hard for Zelda to express herself to Beckett, she tried. Bless her little heart. I just wanted to give her a cuddle.
It was a million times easier to give advice than live it, especially when the advice was to trust someone else with your heart. – Zelda
Their demons ran so deep. Too deep. Like real people. This book could be the story of so many people’s live. That is thing about Emma Scott… she gives you the truth.
I looked at this beautiful, smart woman sitting beside me. I did’t deserve a shot of happiness, but she did. – Beckett
There are not many books where I can say the female main character is strong yet beautifully vulnerable. Zelda, she was it. You never doubt her ability to make it own her own but there is a strength in standing by a man who is shouldering your pain with you. That takes just as much courage as standing alone sometimes.
This book is about forgiveness, not just of yourself but of others as well. It’s about second chances and finding yourself, with are without someone.
I am 1,000% recommending this book. I mean why in hell wouldn’t I? 2/28/17 is the day that will change your life. You can get this book too!!!!