I don’t know how I got so lucky, I really don’t! I have the amazing and sexy Jamie Shaw, from A Love Letter To Whiskey, which happens to be my favorites books of 2016. Needless to say, after reading Jamie and Brecks love story, I had a lot of questions and I am finally getting them answered!!!!!!
Thank you so much for taking the time out to chat with me today.
I’m going to start with my hard question first. This one is huge to me for many reasons but that’s a whole different story.
- What took you so long to get together with Brecks? I mean seriously, you wasted years.
*smirks* Trust me, no one is more upset than I am at how much time we wasted. I don’t know that there’s one way to answer your question, though, because well – let’s be honest – there were a lot of obstacles in our way. If it wasn’t timing or another person, it was our own damn stubbornness. All I know is that after all was said and done, eleven years of waiting was well worth it. I would have waited forever for her.
I don’t think you have any idea how frustrating the two of you were. I wanted to grab you by you hair and make you fix what was obviously broken between the two of you. But you ended up together, so it’s all good.
Ha, I get it, believe me. When I read B’s book, her letter to me, even I was annoyed by us. But, it also brought up a lot of fond memories, because even when she wasn’t mine, she always was. She always will be.
- When you first saw Brecks in California, what did you think? More importantly, what did you feel?
Oh man, what a rush that was. She was so unsuspecting, and she was the same girl I left in Florida except wildly different, too. I remember just looking at her, watching her try to check in, and when the girl called her by her full name, the name she hates, I couldn’t not walk up and save her. Honestly… I thought that would be our time, I thought it was a sign from the universe that we were meant to be. But, well, as you know, it wasn’t quite our time. Yet.
- If you could go back to the time you kissed Brecks when she was with Ethan, would you do things differently?
Hell no. I should have felt bad, honestly, I really should have. But I didn’t. Like I said, in my heart, she was always mine. So when I kissed her, I didn’t think about Ethan, not until our lips had parted. When we were together, when it was me and her, I didn’t care about anything (or anyone) else.
You and Brecks had my head spinning, I can’t image what it must have been like for you.
Right? Our story is a crazy one, but I loved every aching moment of it.
- Can you describe your situation with Brecks in college in ten words or less?
I can’t describe anything with that woman in ten words or less. I need every word in the English dictionary, and usually, not even that is enough.
I’ve always wondered about your engagement to Angel. I never got a chance to know your side, only Brecks.
Uh oh… *laughs*
- If Angel hadn’t called off the wedding, would you be her husband today?
No. I knew after that night with B, well, really, before that night that I couldn’t marry Angel. I cared for her, I really did, but I didn’t love her – not the way I love B. See, B broke my heart when she called things off with us when she was in Pittsburgh. Angel was there to pick up the pieces, and she felt right. She felt like the way to move on, to let go of B once and for all. But when B got off the plane, when she flew in for my wedding, I knew there was no getting over her. Ever.
- Did you love Angel the same way you loved Brecks?
Not even close. Like I said, I cared about her, and she helped me through a hard time. But the love I have for B is unmatchable. It’s chemical.
I’ll be honest with you, when you told Brecks you loved Angel, you broke my heart right along with hers. I just wanted to put that out there since we’re chatting.
Haha, that’s fair. I was trying to do the right thing, or at least, what I thought was right at the time. I think a lot of people got angry with B when they read her book, they felt like she was selfish and stupid. But hey, I was, too. We’re human, and we fucked up – a lot. But in the end, we made it. That’s what matters most to me.
- Did Brecks ever tell you about the conversation she had in the woods with Charlie? If she did, what did you think?
I didn’t know about that until I read her book. When I read it, I had respect for Charlie. He was being a stand up guy, a good guy. I was never one of those, so it was nice to see that he was trying to save us when we couldn’t save ourselves. But, he didn’t know the full story, he didn’t understand our history. No one really does, which is what makes us so crazy for each other.
- Why didn’t you tell her that you were married and had to fix shit?
Ugh, I knew this question was coming. I’ll tell you this, that was one of the toughest times in my entire life. My lawyer was on my ass, telling me even so much as a smoke signal to B would put me up shit creek without a paddle. Looking back on it, I should have fought harder for her. I should have found a way to tell her what was going on. But, truly, I believed her when she said she would wait. I didn’t think I would get a wedding invitation in the mail. Talk about a gut punch.
- Do you think any woman should have to wait that long with word?
Do I think she should have to wait that long? No. But with B, I thought she would. The truth is, no one on the outside of our relationship really understands our craziness. But, she got me. She understood me, the root of me, the deep down shit no one else even got to see. So yes, I truly believed she would wait. And I missed her, God, I missed her. Every day.
I know I said that I started this interview with the most important question but I lied. I’m actually going to end the interview with the most important one.
- How are you and Brecks doing today and are there any golden toned, little Shaw’s running around out there?
Well, I can’t say much, but I’ll tell you that B and I are beyond happy. We ended up moving back to southern California, and while there aren’t any golden toned little Shaw babies running around just yet… there may or may not be one in the oven as we speak. 😉 God help me, I hope it’s a boy.
I have quite a few tattoos but only two are say anything. I have “YOLO” – You Only Live Once and Absolutely No Regrets. I feel like that kind of sums up of my frustrations with you and Brecks.
You wasted so much time not being together, yet you learned so much about yourselves as individuals and you shouldn’t regret that. I loved reading her love letter with you and I wish you two all the love in the world.
Thanks for chatting with me.
It’s been a pleasure. Thanks for having me, and cheers, to you and all the others who love the burn of whiskey as much as we do.
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