Well this is where we end folks, well kind of, there’s The Ones That Got Away Book 4 which is a behind the scenes book. But as far as the end of Erik and Daisy’s story. I’m sad to see them go but it was a fun ride.
Here To Stay by Suanne Laqueur is a story to be remembered and I enjoyed every bit of it! I want to try something a wee bit different than normal. I wanna share with you some of my favorite moments in the book.
I’m still going to get messy but I’m going to keep it pretty as well!
First a word for the author….
“You can’t sort of do this, Fish. Draw a line and get on one side or the other.”
Love is never so sweet as when it receives a second chance. In the sequel to her award-winning novel The Man I Love, Suanne Laqueur continues the story of Erik Fiskare’s romance with Daisy Bianco. Though separated for twelve years, the extraordinary bond forged in their youth has endured. But when your soulmate has caused you indescribable pain, how easy is it to forgive? How much trust is needed to place your heart back into the hands that once broke it? How much faith does it take to ask the question, “Do you still want me?” and believe in the reply: “I still want us.”
Erik and Daisy commit to creating a new life together. They are separated by geography, loyal to career commitments and burdened with lingering pain from a decade spent apart. Yet despite the challenges, Erik knows Daisy is the best thing to happen to him twice.
Slowly Erik earns back Daisy’s love as well as the trust of his incomparable friend, Will Kaeger. Both relationships grow deeper and more complex, as do Erik’s ties to the past. Unexpected contact with distant cousins offers new insight to the cruel childhood desertion that shaped so much of Erik’s adult life. With Daisy at his side, he travels back to his hometown to meet his people, explore his family’s history and learn about the men who wore his heirloom necklace before him.
The cathedral once torn down is rebuilt. But a love affair is never a finished thing. Life is never without its tragedies. Daisy and Erik soon face a threat more harrowing than gunfire, more sorrowful than the lost years. With Will at his back and family close by, Erik must fight for the things he once walked away from and prove his love is here to stay.
“Don’t leave me,” she whispered under him.
“I can’t,” he said. “I’d never breathe again”
As we know at the end of The Man I Love and Give Me You Answer True, Erik and Daisy find their way back to each other. But now the real work begins…starting with trusting one other not to leave and not to cheat.
I didn’t know how to get past it. I didn’t want to get past it. I was too tired. I had no fight in me left anymore. David took the last of it. He took you and he took my will to keep going. I felt used and useless. I told Will I couldn’t pretend it never happened. I couldn’t get back with you and act like we weren’t changed. No matter what I did or said or forgave or forgot, from that day on you and I were different. And I hated it. I didn’t want us to be different. If it couldn’t be us, it was no use to me. So I left.” – Erik
Men are different that women, they need to possess and need to know their possessions are not being tainted. Erik was Daisy’s first and he was to be her only. There was no way they could go back to normal and Erik didn’t know at the time how to be anything else. You can’t not see what you saw and to a man, that is everything.
“Well, when the news about Lancaster was on the TV and we couldn’t get through to the school… It was about an hour window when your mother didn’t know if you were alive. I’ll face down a fleet of tanks rather than re-live that hour again. She looked me in the eye and said, ‘If I lose him, I will die.’ I didn’t think for a nanosecond she was exaggerating.” – Fred, Erik’s mom’s boyfriend
I actually teared up at this one. As a mommy, if I lost my babies, I would die too. No doubt about it.
I trust him with my life. I trust him with my pain. He can’t make it go away, but I can give it to him to hold for a while.
He knows me.
I see in him what I like best in me. – Erik
I don’t know about you all but in my life I have realized true friends are hard to find but Erik found an amazing, life long friendship in Will. It doesn’t get much better than that.
She was a hundred times more beautiful. A thousand times more thrilling. – Erik
After so many years apart Erik still found Daisy to be the most beautiful woman in the world. Every scar, every wound and every curve was beautiful. Don’t we all want to be seen that way?
“My ex-wife is black.”
“Hand to God.”
“You really went to the opposite pole.”
“It was funny when it happened though. I went so long thinking my heart was shut down for good, but I came across her in the theater on day. This little voice inside started tugging at my sleeve. Hey. Girl. Look. See? Girl. Pretty girl. Fetch.”
“I hear you, I couldn’t believe when I felt attracted to another woman after Lucky. Anyway, back to her being black… What was that like?”
Well, I think I can answer that one better than Erik… It’s fucking amazing! I fuck like a porn star. You know what they say – A lady in the street but a freak in the bed.” I can rock almost any hairstyle, any day. My skin is soft as hell and tastes like chocolate. I’m a firm believer in eating pineapples everyday. I’m an amazing mother, awesome nurse and pretty as hell. So, yes, it fucking amazing being with a black chick. LOL!!!!!
I’m so not kidding either 🙂
I also feel a little bit more in love with Erik knowing that I’m his type too!
“I know you like I know myself. If it had been me – me who slept with someone else and you who walked in on it. Much as I tell myself you would have left me the same way, I know in my heart it isn’t true………… But when I called the house or showed up at the door, on my knees begging to explain, you would have answered. You would have given me something.” – Erik
I was hurt when Erik said this to Daisy. Daisy never went to him. She never showed up at his door, on her knees begging to explain. She never did what he would have done for her so he shouldn’t put that blame on his shoulders.
“Sometimes the pain of you sleeping with David is so insignificant when I put it next to the time I threw away. I could have fixed things so long ago. Or at least closed things. One phone call or letter. One cup of coffee. I don’t know if the regret for that will ever go away. I hate what I did.” – Erik
Oh, no! No, no, no no!!!! It wasn’t Erik’s fault, she didn’t fight hard enough for him! It wasn’t Erik’s job to fight hard for her! She fucked David, not Erik!
“Short version. I lost my shit an went into therapy. And in therapy I finally admitted I’d been in love with you in college. James was a simply a means to… divert it elsewhere.” – Will
Ok… that just happened. His bisexual best friend just told him he was in love with him. Wow! We found out in book 2 that Will was in love with Erik but I didn’t think Will was going to tell Erik. That must have been awkward but it was also a testament to how strong their friendship was to be able to admit and trust your friendship could survive it.
Erik shrugged. “You still want to?”
“You mean am I still attracted to men? Sure. But I’m married now. I don’t fuck around with either gender.”
“I just wondered if the itch was there. I wasn’t implying you scratched it.”
“Well then, yes,” Will said. “I do still think about it. I’m still attracted to it and, on occasion, I outright want it. Wanting isn’t having.”
Everybody has that one thing they couldn’t get past in a relationship and for me that is my man being with another man. I don’t give a shit whether someone is gay or not, it makes me no difference. My reason is based solely on selflessness and fear.
I would be scared to lose my man to another man. I can compete with another woman all day any day but I could never win against a man. Then, on top of that, I would feel guilty. I would feel like I’m taking an important part of my man away, like I was forcing him to choose. I wouldn’t be able to live with myself.
Will must have really loved Lucky to put that part of himself away in order to love only her, as a woman. Lucky was an understanding woman because she knew Will loved Erik but it never changed her love for Will.
In the end Erik and Daisy get everything they want, each other, family, friends, kids and career. I loved everything about this series and I’m telling you, you will too. As long as cheating isn’t a deal breaker for you.
I guess this is where I sign off… It’s been real but I gotta clean up my mess and get pretty again. TTYL!