Here we are folks…
I have just finished Give Me Your Answer True by Suanne Laqueur and I FLOVED it!!!
I’m going to warn you, my chat is going to get really messy – like super messy and many of you may not like me after this one.
No matter how messy I get I want to keep in mind that this book is amazing and I recommend you grab yourself a copy. I don’t give 5 stars to books very often and as you can see this one is 4.75 stars, which is basically 5 stars. The only reason I didn’t give it 5 stars is because I’m not a huge fan of books written in the 3rd person.
My messiness is coming out strong on this one because I connected with all the characters, every freaking one, even the ones I didn’t like. I feel a wee bit passionate about it, ya know. Some of the things they said or did gives me feelings, great ones. So let’s get started!
First a word for the author….
“What I feel has no name…”
Suanne Laqueur’s award-winning debut novel The Man I Love thrilled readers with its memorable characters and depth of emotion. Erik Fiskare’s journey of love, recovery and forgiveness captivated hearts but also left questions unanswered. Now Daisy Bianco has a chance to tell her story.
It’s been three years since a single lapse of judgment cost Daisy the love of her life. Erik was a conduit to her soul but now he’s chosen a path of total disconnection, refusing to speak to her or acknowledge her betrayal. Alone and shattered, Daisy attempts to take responsibility for her actions while building her career as a professional dancer in New York City. But Erik’s unforgiving estrangement proves too much for her strength. Plagued by flashbacks to the Lancaster shootings, she falls into a dangerous spiral of self-harm, cutting into her own skin as a means to atone. Only the timely appearance of an old friend, John “Opie” Quillis, saves her from self-destruction and gives her a chance to love again.
Laqueur skillfully weaves flashbacks to the college years with Daisy’s present life. Supported by John’s patient affection, she works to separate her evolution as an adult from the unresolved guilt and grief of her youth. As her professional accomplishments lift her out of depression, Daisy learns to hold onto her accountability without letting it become her identity. Years pass and she builds a beautiful life filled with dance and friends. Lovers come and eventually go, leaving her on her own with the old thought: Come back to me.
In this parallel narrative, Laqueur peels open the beloved characters from The Man I Love to reveal new and complex layers of vulnerability. The scars from the shooting are deep and pervasive within this circle of friends. Like Daisy, they are trying to evolve without being fully resolved. But when questions from the past go unheeded, you alone must find and give your answers true.
Now, let’s get messy…
We are now in the second book of the Fish Tale Series so I hope you have had a chance to read my review of The Man I Love here. The Man I Love was told from Erik’s POV and now we have Daisy’s POV here. I wanted to know WTF Daisy was thinking when she cheated on Erik. And I really wanted to know why she never went after him the day of the incident. So, I hopped onto my Kindle shopping page and bought book two.
To be honest with you, I was never satisfied with the answers to my questions after I finished this book. I thought they were not good enough. Period. Point blank. Not good enough. Bullshit excuses.
With that being said, I did understand where Daisy’s pain and uncertainty was coming from. Reading her side of the story made me want to hug and bring as in as my friend. I found myself wanting to comfort her. Now, listen, I say comfort her because too many people around her babied her and there is a difference between the two. Daisy didn’t want to be babied so I don’t blame her it but she was still babied. You fucked up, I’m not about to stroke your hair tell you everything is going to be okay. I’m not that kind of friend. I’m that friend that’s going to tell you to put your big girl panties on, take a shot of vodka and let’s fix this shit.
I know I shouldn’t laugh but what really sucks is not only did you cheat on your man, you did it with someone who had a little pecker! On page 14 she states that she couldn’t even feel it!!!! I almost died! That was too funny!
Here’s a bit of information about Daisy from book 1
- She’s a ballerina in college
- She had an amazing boyfriend, Erik, until he walked in to find her in while she was fucking their friend.
- She was shot by her friend James after he opened fire in the college theater killing her friends and wounding others.
The book begins with Daisy POV of the morning Erik walked in on her with David, the guy she cheated on him with. But it becomes clear as you read the book that she is actually in therapy and sharing all of this information with her therapist. Daisy is trying to cope with her demons that showed up after the school shooting which to her losing Erik which in turn mad her go bat shit crazy.
So let’s answer the questions I needed after book one…
Why did she cheat on Erik?
She hated herself, she didn’t die physically after being shot but she died that day in a different way, she was high, she needed pain to feel, her sex life with Erik was crap, but most of all – in Daisy’s words, not mine…she wasn’t thinking.
See bullshit. Not good enough.
Yes, I understand that she was hurting. I even understand the need to stay away from drama because of the way she was raised. I can rock with her needing pain to feel. But I can’t for the life of grasp why she had sex with David. I mean damn, the boy pulls your panties to the side and starts giving you head and all of a sudden you’re too coked out to notice or even care. Nah. No, baby girl, that’s not even how coke works. If anything coke makes you more aware, not less. Not to mention you still walked your happy ass up the stairs to get in bed with him. You weren’t that high.
I hate everything. I hate with I did. I hate who I am. – Daisy
And this is where she breaks my heart. Hating what you did is a good thing, but don’t hate who you are baby girl. I know I called Daisy a bitch in The Man I Love book review but I don’t think she should hate herself. I’m not cruel.
I loved her therapist Rita, she was amazing and helped Daisy off the edge so to speak but I kind of felt like she was trying to help Daisy figure out how to justify her actions. There’s a fine line between helping someone cope with the negative thing they did and helping them find away to excuse that behavior.
But, before you smack me let me tell you why I love Daisy….she took the advice from her therapist but she also never told herself what she did was okay, that what she did was justifiable. She knew it was wrong and she took responsibility for it. That’s why I liked Daisy, well one of the reasons at least. There are more reasons.
I am happy that Daisy eventually learned to love herself again and not let the school shooting or the sleeping with David define her anymore.
On to my next question….
Why did Daisy not go to Erik after he found her in bed with David?
Because she started throwing up after Erik left the room – understandable, I’ll give her that one.
And because her friends, Lucky and Will told her not to. Worst advice ever! Will and Lucky told Daisy that she needed to give him the night to cool off. Too bad for them he left before sun up.
If she would have walked to his house and at least tried to talk to Erik, he might have listened. Even if he didn’t listen at that moment, he might not have left because the effort would have showed that she cared. To Erik it just looked like she didn’t care enough to even check on him. Do you see why I called her a bitch in my last review.
And then it gets worse…hold on…wait for it…
…………….she only calls his mom house to talk to him after he left. So she’s calling and calling but Erik won’t get on the phone or he hangs up in her face. Ok, that’s understandable. But here’s what I don’t understand…
Why didn’t Daisy go to his house and force him to talk to her?
She knew where he was, she knew the address, she knew how to drive there. Like, WTF! Go get your man or at least try. Put in a bit more effort, yeah. I didn’t really get it personally. Maybe I’m just crazy but I would have been sitting on his porch or in my rental car across the street waiting for him to finally talk to me. Girls expect men to do things like that if they fuck up, shouldn’t it be the same when women fuck up.
In my personal opinion, I don’t think Daisy tried hard enough. Phone calls and letters are not enough to win someones heart back and definitely not enough to make someone trust you again.
All’s well that ends well, right?
We at least have our HEA!!!
There are many more things that popped up in the book and you should really read it for yourself to find out. Grab your copy, a glass of wine, a shot of vodka or whatever your drink of choice is and have at it.
It is now time for me to clean up my mess and get ready for book three, Here To Stay. Until next time! TTYL